No More Silence

No More Silence

I received this quote from my best friend whose heart is as heavy as mine for victims of abuse and domestic violence.  I have to pass it on in recognition that we cannot be silent in watching many women and children go through abuse and turn the other cheek out of fear of getting involved.  So here is what she had found and shared with me.

“We must swear never to be silent whenever and wherever human beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.” ~~Elie Wiesel

When we don’t speak out we give way to the enemy who so desires to take every soul that he can before his time is up.  As I sat down to share this I felt the encouragement of God.  As I opened my Bible, it fell opened to 1 Samuel 24 the highlights that stood out to me were amazing as I read.

~Beginning with verse 4 it says, The men said, “This is the day the LORD spoke of when He said to you, ‘I will give your enemy into your hands for you to deal with as you wish.'” and then in verse 15 it says, “May the LORD be our judge and decide between us.  May he consider my cause and uphold it; may he vindicate me by delivering me from your hand.  Then in the study notes at the bottom of this scripture for 24:16-19 the last part of the notes reads, “David’s refusal was not an example of cowardice but of courage– the courage to stand against the group and do what he knew was right.  Don’t compromise your moral standards by giving in to group pressure or taking the easy way out.”  WOW!

God made man in his own image.  Male and FEMALE He made them (Genesis 1:27)!

Let’s pray together to bring down the horrible acts of crime and stealing of the innocence of the weak and young!  In the day and times that we are faced with now, we can no longer turn a blind eye.  God has called us and raised us up to shine a light on sin that the adversary wants to keep hidden and make most think that they deserve this cruel and unjust treatment and that if they tell anyone they will be cast out as the trash that they are and no one will want them.  LIES.

Psalm 37: 1-15, 27-29

Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away.  Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.  Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:  He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.  Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.  Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-it leads only to evil.  For evil men will be cur of, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.  A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they will not be found.  but the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.  The wicked plot against the righteous and gnash their teeth at them; but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he knows their day is coming.  The wicked draw the sword and bend the bow to bring down the poor and needy, to slay those whose ways are upright.  But their swords will pierce their own hearts, and their bows will be broken. 27 Turn from evil and do good; then you will dwell in the land forever.  For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones.  They will be protected forever, but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off; the righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever.

AMEN to this.  It is THE WORD OF GOD to those who think it ok to do unjust acts to those who cannot defend themselves.

I myself was told to remain silent.  My chains are gone I have been set free.  It is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in and through me.  If He is for me then what have I got to fear; who can be against me?

If there is nothing else that you feel that you can do, please begin to pray for those whom you may know that need help and if you are afraid to get involved physically, then get involved actively and pray with and for them; have a list of numbers to refer them to.  If it is a child then call the authorities, it can be done anonymously.

Fear not For I am always with you

Fear not For I am always with you

This morning as I sat down with my coffee to read, I opened my Bible to find a scripture that I had highlighted and underlined about 3 years ago.

EXODUS 14:13-14 (ESV) And Moses said to the people, “Fear not, stand firm, and see the salvation of the LORD, which he will work for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall never see again. The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”

We pray and cry out continuously. But, do we do so believing and trusting?

As we come to the LORD with our burdens and pains of hurt from trials, abuse, addictions… Come to Him and drop your fears; standing firm in your faith in Christ Jesus and see the salvation of the LORD which He WILL work for you today. Those Egyptians spoken of in this passage… Place the one who is hurting you, the abuser, the substance that you cling to right now or the trial that you are facing and re-read the passage stating that those whom you see today, you shall never see again. The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.


Where the Spirit of the Lord is, THERE IS FREEDOM, 2 Corinthians 3:17.

Have an amazing day filled with the grace, peace and mercy of our Savior.

Are you at the end or, a Crossroad?

Recently I have found my self to be at the end of some things though painful, they needed to come to an end.  Then there are many other facets of life that are still moving on with some that seem stagnant and needing a choice to be made and getting through the CROSSROAD of sit or DO.

.ImageI choose to do.  God did not call us to be sitters…  He called us to be doers and doers of His Word, not just hearers.  I have always been active.  I love the outdoors.  I love to run, cycle, do some form of work out, etc.  Just as God called me to be a doer in my life when He radically changed it; meaning that I had to do what He had called me to do and that was accept His promise and walk the rest of my life by faith believing that He really had woken me up and changed my life forever in that moment.  He has called me to be a doer with the rest of my days in serving Him and sharing my life and testimony with others.  I am to be a witness in this life and to bear His name that is now what governs me and guides everything about me.

I must be healthy spiritually, physically, mentally and SOUL-ly!

As I am continuing on in this journey that I am in and on, I have such a huge desire to help, love, counsel and encourage women and children.  Focusing on those who have been abused in their lives and who have had such life challenges stemming from the abuse.  I want you to know that there is hope and freedom from the darkness that seems as though it will always be a part of your life and that you just have to live with it.  No you don’t and no it isn’t and doesn’t have to be an eternal appendage.

I was in the darkest place that I had never thought that I would be in and in the moment that God woke me up and said, “I am here, and look, I am holding your tears.  If you are ready to trust Me, I am going to change your life and the course of it FOREVER!”  The next morning I woke up and felt brand new but yes, I was questioning my middle of the night experience.  I told no one of what had happened because I had always told all before that I had quit this or that only to return to it most likely the next day or even that day.  I took God at His word and walked through that first day sober, somber, clean and FREE in Christ Jesus.  I woke the next day again, testing the waters but knowing full well, that I had made a commitment to God and I want to hold my end up…  Still, no craving, urge, draw or desire to drink, drug or walk in the life that held me captive for all of my life after my father and many others abused me.  I began marking the calendar every day that God and I grew through and it became so special.  I shared it only with a few trusted people as I wanted God to show the world through my new life and walk that He is in the business of RADICALLY changing lives.

My biological father had set the stage for me before I even knew what life was all about, I became aware that I wasn’t worth much at a very innocent, young age.  The only thing that I was worthy of is giving the great body that I had been given away and hoping that I would finally find love.  I began drinking and doing occasional drugs if it were available with those I hung out with just to numb the pain of it all and to help get me through to the next day.  This went on for quite some time with many men, relationships, marriages and divorces.  I never found love here; real, true, intimate love that all desire and yearningly search for.  But, I found  the one who is TRUE love and who has little by little shown me what a father is really like and the love that I should have been taught and unconditionally given.

Not fun and not a road to brag about other than the fact that now I realize that He knew me before I ever was and knew all that I would be allowed to endure to bring me to where I am today in Him and Whole.  Able to share my life, my struggles, my journey, my successes as I have devoted my life to growing closer to God every day and being able to reach out to others who are afraid to admit what has happened to them, get help to get through it, and have true freedom to never go back to the abuser, the abusive life, the lifestyle or numbing yourself to get through another day.

Also, to seek forgiveness and to forgive.  I felt so much relief when I began unloading all of the anger, guilt, shame, unforgiveness, regret, bitterness and just giving it all to Jesus.  The biggest thing you can do for yourself is to forgive those who have hurt you.  You are carrying such a huge weight around being mad and unforgiving while the other person is carrying on with their life debt free.  Why debt free?  Because you are carrying everything for them.  We are the only ones who are trapped when we harbor unforgiveness.  Forgiveness doesn’t say that what has happened is ok or forgotten.  It says that you are giving them to God and letting Him deal with the atrocity that they have committed.  It frees you. Walk in the freedom of Christ today.  Give Him your pains, trials and life circumstances.  I am here as living proof that He will get you through ANYTHING.

I will keep praying for any and all who do not or can not find their voice in the horrible matter in their life.  My desire is to continuing working on being a voice for the voiceless and share the Hope of God for the hopeless.

Can I be of help for you today?  Can I pray for or with you?  Can I share more of my testimony with you to help guide you away from the abuse you may be in?  Do you know of someone living in an abusive situation?  Do you know children who are in an abusive home and possibly being sexually abused?  I would love to pray with you, a loved one or a friend. I desire to help get you out of this and get a child away from their perpetrator!  I know what this life is all about.

My Redeemer Lives

Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. ~Matthew 10:39, NIV~
Once again, I have found myself in tears as I read in a small book that my best friend had given me for my first anniversary of sobriety in the Lord, 1/27/2010. The name of the book is “My Prince Will Come” by Sheri Rose Shepherd. I was reading the portion of the book titled, “Freedom – Do What God Tells You To Do”.
Joshua 7:12, CEV – I cannot help you anymore until you do exactly what I have said.
As Sheri writes, “I believe God gets to a point where He says the same thing to us that He said to Joshua: ‘I cannot help you anymore, My princess, until you do exactly what I tell you to do’”.
There have been so many times in my life where I had just acted and lived on impulse because I did not know any better and being submerged in alcohol and at times drugs, I was not in the right mind to understand or make rational, real and logical decisions.
In reading this awesome small book that my dearest friend gave me, it opened up more sections in this path of life that I need to release to my Savior and do ALL things His way and not my own. In just a few moments and words on a couple of pages, my heart just melted into a babbling river of tears. None of us is perfect but, God does expect us to listen and obey. Sheri talks about her times of trial as a child and the divorce of her parents that drew her relationship with she and her mother apart and she didn’t care, that is of course until she had a daughter and realized the devastation of even a thought of her daughter and her going through the pain and rejection she and her mom had felt. Sheri didn’t realize then the pain, loneliness and feelings of rejection that her mom was dealing with on top of the pain of her past, her divorce, and her daughter moving out (p. 89). We who are living in a life of hell brought on by the awful choice of another to hurt us in ways unimaginable to most, unfortunately crawl within and take the path that is least desirable and most comfortable to adapt to as it is what has been taught us from way back. I did not live a life of example for my children and caused them much pain, anger and perhaps bitterness that I pray the Lord to heal. I pray for total healing in our relationships that the woman God has made me to be is the woman and mom they will cherish in their hearts. No, I didn’t teach them proper values by example in my life. I didn’t know until recently in my life how to value myself let alone anyone else. But I am so proud and honored to be the mom of the women that they grew up to be and oh, the unspeakable joy of watching them be dedicated in their marriages and raising their beautiful children. I have also been upset with my mom for many years underneath it all, feeling rejected, let down and not protected from the horrible man that hurt me even after I had told her what happened. Heck, she didn’t know what to do with it all and he had abused her too. I am not to handle even that in my own way. The enemy would have us continue to hang on to our feelings and anger reminding us of the justness in it all. The enemy comes only to rob, steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10). The Bible also tells us in Ephesians 6:12 that our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities and against the powers of this dark world.
God tells us that we are to honor our parents that it may go well with us, Exodus 20:12.


Everyone in our lives is affected by the choices that we make but, unfortunately we are not always in the right frame of mind to know or understand just how much. I have such a track record of bad choices and decisions that I just felt like I would never be of value to anyone and from the way it looked, I wasn’t. I was only useful to be used and abused by so many all of my life. I see in this small book that is such a blessing to me now, what a blessing my Jesus is and how He and only He stood by me through it all. Wiping my tears when I thought that I was all alone and holding me as I drunkenly cried myself to sleep and asking Him to make me normal. I have been given a chance to make huge changes in my life and believe me; I am taking every opportunity for growing in the grace and knowledge of my Lord and Savior. I am making changes for the good and only God can have the glory of where I am and where I have come from. But, I now, as Sheri said in her book have the opportunity with the special blessings of my beautiful grandchildren to love them the way that I wanted to love my two beautiful daughters when they were little but didn’t quite know how. I do not hide my life anymore because Jesus has made me righteous by His blood but, I want to not have my grandchildren know the broken woman who raised their mommies, nor do I want to harbor pain or unforgiveness for my mom as she only did what she knew as well in all of her pain and seeking the unknown for normalcy. “My mom’s past is where my past is… at the Cross (p. 90)!” My desire is that those beautiful children see only the gramma Jesus has filled with His life.
I am thankful and oh so grateful to be free from the bonds of unforgiveness. I am eternally grateful for the freedom that I have in Jesus Christ to be a woman of God and go forth in the rest of my life leaving a legacy of true spiritual humility filled only with the love and compassion of Christ as He uses me in the lives of so many others who are still in the grips of the enemy and held in bondage to abuse, use, addiction and numbing themselves to have a chance to get through or to a new chance to find freedom.

Have a blessed day and enjoy it in the freedom that is ours in Christ Jesus who is Truth and Freedom.

Sheri Rose Shepherd, My Prince Will Come, 205, Multnomah Publishers Sisters, Oregon
Scripture verses have been taken from different Biblical

Powerful or Full of Power


I saw this and it made me think of so many things.

Don’t we at times wake up and feel like we have the power of a horse ready to rear up and run for miles only to soon find out that the power drains rather quickly…  When is it that you feel most or more powerful?  I find that my best days are those that have been well soaked in the Word of God before I go traipsing off out into a possibly wicked day.  It seems that much of the time more so lately that the enemy is well-timed in days getting away from me and I feel so worn out and WEAK.  In my own strength I really have no strength at all but in the times that I purpose in my heart to spend time with The Lord I find myself feeling like that powerful black beauty.  Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart ~Psalm 37:4.

I saw a post on facebook this morning that quite tells the seemingly almost everyday story!  When I miss my alarm time, I am sad and very weak because I am then rushed and expect God to understand and I tell Him that I will read later.  As we all know…  later never comes.  Too many things creep up and into our day that keep us far from the Word and our Power-Filling time with God.  That is the only true way that we have power at all to be strengthened by Him in and through His word that has ALL Power over heaven and earth.

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As we pay close attention to the times that we are in and just what is going on around us, I think that the enemy is even harder at work on God’s children than ever before.  I see how the image of the big, beautiful, strong, black powerful horse fades into a weak vessel if left unfed.  To have power and be powerful is to keep our hearts, eyes and minds focused on the Word of the Lord daily so that the enemy is not able to divide our minds thus taking our focus off of the Lord and His will for each of our lives.  Our physical bodies cannot survive without being fed and so it is with our souls.  Would you rather be “POWERFUL” OR “FULL OF POWER”?  I know that I would much rather be filled with the power of the Holy Spirit dwelling within me to give me the strength that I need in every situation or opportunity that comes my way.  When I set my mind on the things above I even feel like I am powerful because the Bible tells us that the joy of the Lord is our strength.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world.” ~John 16:33 NIV~ There are days when I want to curl up in a ball and hope that no one will notice me.  I hurt to the core with the haunting memories of the life I lived as a worm.  I always cry out to the Lord when things come in waves in my mind to just take it all away.  And then the words always surface and I say out loud, “heal the pain but leave the scars”.  I at times don’t even like the scars.  I know that I am not who I was by any means but, now, for the first time in my life I feel so much pain from all the years of searching and having absolutely no clue what I was searching for or the effect that it not only had on me but my children.  I wish that I could take them back and just hold them and not let any of the heartache take hold.  I live daily with the scars of the abuse that my father imputed on me when I was too young to remember and continuing.  I never knew the devastation and life long effects that I would endure and put upon those in my life and that I love more than life itself.  Without all of this, I would not be the woman who I have been designed to be today.  I am so blessed to have all the scriptures that I share with you resounding in my heart to remind me Who I Am in CHRIST.  You are the potter, I am the clay.  Mold me and make me, this is what I pray.

Have a wonderful night and Happy Hump Day tomorrow.


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This is the Peace that God talks about; the Peace that passes all understanding. This is walking in integrity and in constant fellowship with God. The world plays games and robs us of sleep, Walking in Truth, the TRUTH is total success.

Do Not Fear, I am with you


I write today with a somewhat lighter heart than that that I have had this week.

I know who my redeemer is and I know where I am going when my last breath is taken here on earth.  But, sadly I ask…  DO YOU?  I say it this way because not one of us knows the moment we will have that last breath or can plan for it.  I have had trouble with my thoughts and putting them on paper these last few days.  I got word on Monday that a friend whom I had worked with for several years had passed away Friday 6/7/13.  Sad news.  I had made plans at work in preparation for attending her funeral on Friday 6/14.  The week progressed.

I spoke with an old friend that I had not spoken to for at least a year and a half or better on Tuesday 6/4/13.  Ahhhh, it was so nice to chat again.  He and his family he told me would be leaving the next day for a get away and would return on Sunday.  He asked if he might reach out to me this past week when he returned.  I said, “yes”; enjoy your time with your kids and family time….  I didn’t know what a blessing it was that out of the blue after a couple of years he popped into my head that day and I text him to say hey, what a blessing you get this year; your birthday and fathers day together.  They got to their destination on Wednesday and he never woke up on Thursday…  Sadly, his wife and children had to fly home alone.  His funeral was yesterday as well as my other friend.  Two in one day, never had that before and it was hard.

I was excited to be able to speak with him after he got back to share what the Lord has done in my life and the miracle that I am blessed to live every day in Christ as a NEW CREATION

All things New 2Cor 5 17

My reason for this writing is to urge you not to let a day go by, not one more without Christ and Him as Lord and Savior of your life.  If you have a testimony, share it.  I was literally lifeless on Thursday upon hearing the news of his passing.  I couldn’t put it into words on that day.

If you are afraid because you are in a bad situation, maybe in an abusive situation and can’t take that first step, you have been abused and have turned to the world and substances or relationships to numb your pain and feel accepted, perhaps you don’t feel worthy because you have always been told you are useless, dumb, ugly, trash, uneducated…  The list can and is endless for those of us who know.  I ask that you find a place and go before the Lord, seek Him and ask Him to forgive you for where your life is or has ended up.  I understand where you are, just so you know.  Though it is not your fault for what has been done to you, we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23).

Don’t wait another day.  Tomorrow may not come.

There is beauty in leaving the world behind and all of its pain.  I have never enjoyed facing difficult situations more than I do now.  Though there are some toughies, I have such a sweet peace to get me through.  As the Word of God has taught me, I do not turn to man for my comfort or counsel; it is empty and leads to uncertainty.  I seek first the Lord in His Word and follow His counsel that never lets me down or broken.  Though none go with me, still I will follow.  Take refuge in the shadow of the Almighty and you will have Peace.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus, Philippians 4: 6-7

     Oh yah so back to my original question…  Do you?

In His peace and hope, have a beautiful weekend.


His Plan is Perfect, His Timing Precise

His Plan is Perfect, His Timing Precise

June 14

I have loved you with an everlasting Love. Before time began, I knew you. For years you swam around in a sea of meaninglessness, searching for Love, hoping for hope. All that time I was pursuing you, aching to embrace you in My compassionate arms.

When time was right, I revealed Myself to you. I lifted you out of that sea of despair and set you down on a firm foundation. Sometimes you felt naked—exposed to the revealing Light of My Presence. I wrapped an ermine robe around you: My robe of righteousness. I sang you a Love song, whose beginning and end are veiled in eternity. I infused meaning into your mind and harmony into your heart. Join Me in singing My song. Together we will draw others out of darkness into My marvelous Light.

The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.”
—Jeremiah 31:3

I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God. For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
—Isaiah 61:10

But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.
—1 Peter 2:9 nkjv

This is taken from the “Jesus Calling” Devotional by Sarah Young.

I thought is so appropriate to share as it is so fitting for those who continually swim in that sea of meaninglessness looking to be accepted and searching for love. This is my story! As she says, “when the time was right He lifted me out of that sea of despair and revealed Himself to me”.

When You get to that point of your life taking a real turn and you begin to shed so much weight of the burdens carried in fear and shame; not wanting anyone to see or know how bad you are, there is a peace and one that doesn’t make sense at first. Now, you can rest knowing that nothing else matters. I state it a lot I know but, John 8:32 states, you will know the truth and the truth shall set you free. He has taken it all and set your feet on high ground. As this devotion also says, watch as He draws others to Himself by the renewing of your life and how you shine with the newness of His love.

Let your light shine and don’t be ashamed. Your past was designed to draw you out to be who you are today and draw others to Him as you walk each step close by His side.

Have a Fabulous Friday and walk in the newness that has designed a beautiful YOU.

#Child #Sexual Offenders Overseas Get Custody of Indian #Girls

Why do people even wonder why Jennifer was charged with drug possession? I can tell you firsthand why myself and others turn to drugs and alcolhol to numb the pain of this very act. The man that adopted her and brought her to the US sexually abused her. My prayers are with her and I pray she will overcome this atrocity.


surrogates indiaThere has been increased concern about India’s surrogacy laws, which are one of the least regulated in the world.  It has allowed economic exploitation of poor women by their families for earning income by forcing women through repeated pregnancies, for “clients” overseas.  Without proper regulation, now it turns out that this abuse extends to other areas also.

Recently, a convicted serial, child sexual offender in Israel got custody of a four-year-old Indian girl through an agreement with a surrogate mother in India.  The Israel National Council for the Child (NCC) got an anonymous tip-off about the man and the welfare services say

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Hope and Healing

Hope and Healing

1/27/2009 @ 2:30am. Can you recall without a thought the day that you were healed, set free from what the world and your past said you were and, what your life would never change from?  There is HOPE and HEALING. Declaring the day that you never have to go back to what you thought was just the way life would be.

Share your date. I know I will awesomely never forget what MIRACLE happened for me and will declare and shout it from the roof tops in hopes of another hearing it and choosing LIFE, a life of FREEDOM.

Have a happy HUMP Day and shout to The Lord your thankfulness and praise for your special day.

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I prayed to you, LORD God, and you healed me, saving me from death and the grave. — Psalm 30:2-3 (CEV)